The thing I like most about bodybuilding is that you never know how you will grow through the process of intense preparation, work, and sacrifice. But I never come out the other side of it the same. Each time I learn new things about my self, what I'm capable of, and a new direction for life. There are changes beyond the physical that reshape me. I think that's the same with any goal or undertaking that requires our best.
I'll never forget the first lesson Mike taught me about bodybuilding. "The only thing you can't control is who else shows up." So true! But I can control how I show up. One more thing we can't control. The judges...they are the ones that decide on the better physique. Since it is a subjective sport, sometimes they will like the leanest guy, sometimes the bigger guy, sometimes the guy with the better symmetry. I've yet to be able to guess the judging throughout the classes at a show. The judges control the prize. Therefore it is a mistake to get too hung up on placings at a competition. And since the promoters here give a $4 medal for prizes, it better be about the journey of personal growth and development, otherwise it's wouldn't be worth it.
And for me it is. It's been said so many times that it's cliche, but it's the absolute truth that "it's about the journey, not the destination." Author Stephen Pressfield says "We are not entitled to the fruits of our labor. We are only entitled to our labor." I understand that better now. The process and progress of work, and the inherent benefits of our work are the only things we can lay claim on.
Looking back on this year's journey, I can smile with pride. I wouldn't have done anything different. I worked harder than ever and brought my best physique in both size and conditioning. I am pleased with my posing. I am pleased with my progress. I can say with all honesty, I have no regrets. I did it in a healthy way. And I felt strong right down until the end.
The upside of not having reached my goal of winning the overall, is that I am still hungry. So my journey continues. And while I can't predict how I will grow through the process of my next goal, I know I won't emerge the same. I'm happy to have a goal... I'm happiest when I'm in pursuit.
This is bodybuilding, not bodybuilt. Let the building continue...
